Here with I am writing about out coming of my illness of nearly one year during 2007-08. After taking a lot of medicine I came on the conclusion that my problem does not lies in body bit somewhere else.
So I started searching all the way round.
That year was very painful for me. Even thought of it brings shiver in my body. But I could come out of it after a long struggle a very painful journey.
Why I am telling u this? Really it is a question. But I feel everybody should understand this.If possible convey ur comments on my learning out comes.
After thinking a lot on my problem first learning outcome was…I was isolated personality as far as my personal emotions are concerned. I never use to allow any body to tell me about my emotional status. You may call I was ruthless about it. I was much workaholic and passionate about the work.
I got good result for it also. But that had driven me in to a great trouble.
1) My First learning outcome:-
Emotions and feelings that are hidden, repressed, end in illnesses as: gastritis, ulcer, lumbar pains, spinal. With time, the repression of the feelings degenerates serious illness. Then, we go to a confidante, to share our intimacy, ours "secret", our errors! The dialogue, the speech, the word, is a powerful remedy and an excellent therapy!
As I started thinking much over on it I could found very important thing that I have not yet decided what I have to do in this life? All the time I was engrossed in performance and very much happy with achievements of me. More ever my work was for to please someone or to impress someone.
When I understood the fact......
2) My Second learning outcome:-
The undecided person remains in doubt, in anxiety, in anguish. Indecision accumulates problems, worries and aggressions. Human history is made of decisions. To decide is precisely to know to renounce, to know to lose advantages and values to win others. The undecided people are victims of gastric ailments, nervous pains.
Before taking first Pratidnya,I was much critic as well as sarcastic. I use to make bad comment on others work. Due to intellectual superiority which I use to feel about myself I use to become superior in discussion. But all this Intellectual exercise was mere gossip or dry intellectual games.
When I though over all, I found that I was much negative in approach that’s why I disturb many people so I could come out with third learning outcome.
3) My Third learning outcome:-
Negative people do not find solutions and they enlarge problems. They prefer lamentation, gossip, pessimism. It is better to light a match that to regret the darkness. A bee is small, but produces one of the sweetest things that exist. We are what we think. The negative thought generates negative energy that is transformed into illness.
Because of all above I was in problem but I was making a scene that I am the best and the perfect.
But when I started thinking more I found that was very painful but it was reality. I started doing more introspection and I could come out with…..
4) My Fourth learning outcome:-
Who hides reality, pretends, poses and always wants to give the impression of being well. He wants to be seen as perfect, easy-going, etc. but is accumulating tons of weight. A bronze statue with feet of clay. There is nothing worse for the health than to live on appearances and facades. These are people with a lot of varnish and little root. Their destiny is the pharmacy, the hospital and pain.
The problem of my health was going worse. I started taking medicine. Those were heavy doses. It was very painful and anxious. I was much confused….very much…Lastly I decided to travel a lot. I had been to Gujarath, Anandwan of Baba Amte, Sevagram Ashram, Pawanar Ashram and lastly to Search gram (Shodh Gram) at Gadchiroli of Dr.Abhay Bang.I had 20 min talk with Dr. Abhay Bang. I told him myproblem. At the last of meeting I could come out with fifth learning outcome.
5) My Fifth learning outcome:-
The refusal of acceptance and the absence of self-esteem, make us alienate ourselves. Being at one with ourselves is the core of a healthy life. They, who do not accept this, become envious, jealous, imitators, ultra-competitive, destructive. Be accepted, accept that you are accepted, and accept the criticisms. It is wisdom, good sense and therapy.
That was the turning point…it brought a beautiful change in my life. My anger reduced and I started thinking twice of anything. I started understanding other people. I stopped my autocratic way of life.
And found my new learning out come.
6) My Sixth learning outcome:-
Who does not trust, does not communicate, is not opened, is not related, does not create deep and stable relations, and does not know to do true friendships. Without confidence, there is not relationship. Distrust is a lack of faith in you and in faith itself.
Then I took second oath (Pratidnya) of Jnana Prabodhini. Now I was thinking bit a little different and decided to take all Janan prabodhini ,Ambajogai karyakartas to Kanyakumari. In Abhyas Shibir also I participated with a little difference. We enjoyed the both 17 days Kanaykumari stay and three days Abhyas Shibir. In between I had been to Israel for study “What is the Attitude of Israeli People towards life?” It was real eye opener for me. And came out with ….
7) My Seventh learning outcome:-
Good humor. Laughter. Rest. Happiness. These replenish health and bring long life. The happy person has the gift to improve the environment wherever they live. “Good humor saves us from the hands of the doctor". Happiness is health and therapy.
My medicine reduced a lot. My Doctor told me it is really wonderful how fast u could come out of it. She is making my case study for presenting in International conference. After Going through all of this I have decided to take third oath. May some new horizons of life will open to me for living purposeful life and not to make career.